The perks of being a wallflower

I’m getting left back. I’m mentally fucked. I’m losing all my friends. My family simply do not care and can’t help anyway. I get eaten alive everyday by painful memories, and uncontrollable guilt. I’m fat. I’m ugly. I will always be fat and ugly. My life is a repeating cycle of the same shit every day. Every year I say things will change and they don’t. It’s hard to commit suicide I’ve tried so many times, I just hate the side effects and guilt trips I go through and no one ever finds out anyway. I struggle with religion everyday. I HATE MYSELF SO FUCKING MUCH. The only thing that keeps me going are things I know deep inside will never happen. Why am I still here?

My life has no meaning.

I wanna cut my bottom lip off and break my nose ugh I hate my face so much,

I hate myself so much I don’t even have the confidence to take pictures or go outside.

I forget the names of the people that I asked questions to, of course I would how rich! -.-

Thank you Nathan for sending that helpful message to me! It really made me feel allot better about the concept of astral traveling. I really appreciated it. The only reason I didn’t post it was because I wasn’t sure if the protection chants were personal to you.

Okay so I’m gonna try and get back into astral projection I need as much advice as you guys can give (if you chose to help me). Are their any Christian travelers? Hope that didn’t sound rude because I take advice from all I do not discriminate trust me. It’s just maybe someone would have protection related to Christian things idk pagan stuff is fine to just asking! Hope I didn’t sound rude :/ anyway advice please from anyone who wants to throw in their two cents.